Monday, August 31, 2009

Okami.

Haven't played any video games in a while (and by that I mean like almost a year) but I just started playing the game OKAMI and holy hell is it good. I'm a sucker for artsy games.

Friday, August 28, 2009

For the first time in my life...

So one of my best friends who I've known since 2nd grade just arrived in China to teach English as a 2nd language for a year. Today, pictures arrived on Facebook and I realized for the first time in my life... I'm jealous.

If I didn't know what I wanted to do with my life (like way too many college grads I know) I'd do the exact same thing. That or join the army like I originally considered. Right now though, I'm too focused on getting my art career off the ground, but I still can't help but think that maybe the whole art thing can wait a year or two... I'll see.

I should just wait until after grad school.

Tuesday, August 25, 2009

Monday, August 24, 2009

Character designs.

Designing some more cartoony-style characters that could fit into a portfolio being sent to companies such as Dreamworks or Blue Sky. This is pretty fun!

Here goes.

I'm going to be completely honest in this post. I dunno what's beneficial about typing this (since I don't think anybody actually reads this blog) but it's satisfying to me to get it out, even if I feel like I'm talking to a wall.

Right now I'm not content with how my life has been going. I'm done with school (pretty much), living at home, working whatever job I can get to save up money. Most of what Hartford has to offer bores me at this point, and if I continue to live here, I don't see my life going anywhere special. Despite the fact that I'm still driven to keep making art, I can't help but feel depressed more often than not. I know exactly what I want to do in life however, so I guess that puts me ahead of a lot of the rest. Still, I'm not happy, and despite having several close friends, I still feel very alone here.

Right now I'm planning to get my MFA in computer animation down at SCAD. If I'm to get a job as an animator working full time at a company it'll give me the financial security that I seek, as well as potential health benefits and whatnot. I may not have complete creative freedom if I'm working for some company, but it's easily a sacrifice I'd make. One day I'm really going to need the money to support myself an even a family, and a job like that would provide both, and then some.

To look even further ahead...

Eventually I could leave my work and start my own company that freelances with other companies in the industry. It could consist of me and various friends in the art community, and would allow more creative freedom as well as a (still) consistent flow of income. I'll have much more real world experience under my belt so it would be easier then then it would now (with me still being a random dude just finishing college).

And to look even further ahead...

When I get old, I quit all that and just become a fine artist. Build my cabin in the woods and just paint :)

Anyways, I'm doing fine overall, but I'm just recognizing that I need a change in my life. Dumb as this sounds, I know that I have the potential for far greater things then I'm doing right now, and staying in CT is holding me back. I may move out even earlier then expected, possibly this winter. I'll see.

To anybody who actually read all that, thank you. Venting and getting stuff off your chest helps a lot. I know one day (soon) I'll be over this mild slump in life, and I thank my friends and all those who have been supportive for their help.

Peace out. :)

Sunday, August 23, 2009

Done.

I'm officially moving out of Connecticut this winter, and I cannot wait.

Saturday, August 22, 2009

Crash.


Just finished this, although I'll probably go back into it later tomorrow.
By the way, does anyone actually read my blog? I feel like whenever I type into here it's as if I'm speaking to the wall. I'll still update regardless, but I'm just curious...

Wednesday, August 19, 2009

Burn.







I'm quite happy with how this came out. Although I feel like I'm jocking a certain style a little too closely... but who cares. Everybody jocks everybody else. Especially in the art world.

On a side note, Agalloch is the single gloomiest, most depressing band I've ever had the chance to listen to, but I can't help but love them. They, perhaps more then any other band, inspire me artistically.

Wednesday, August 12, 2009

Oops.

My last post was made to the wrong blog. I feel like an ass.

Monday, August 10, 2009

Thursday, August 6, 2009

Insomnia.

I hate insomnia. So tired, but can't fall asleep.









I'm happy with this because it conveys movement, and has life to it. I have a thing for broken down, atmospheric, desolate places (obvious to anyone who knows my work) but at the same time I need a portfolio that also has lively stuff in it. Of course I'll try to keep the same type of atmosphere as the rest of my stuff. :)

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Tuesday, August 4, 2009

Run to the hills. Run far away.

Beautiful day yesterday, went cliff jumping for like the 10th time this summer. Finally did the infamous 100 foot "running man"... and I'm still alive to talk about it.











Done with this (I think anyways).

Monday, August 3, 2009

Texturing.

Lately I've been a huge fan of using texture overlays in Photoshop. I used to be against this practice because I felt as if it were "cheating" by taking a photograph and using it to add detail instead of painting it yourself... but then I realized how AWESOME the results can be!





This is still a work in progress! If anybody actually checks my blog please crit this :)

Also, I'm planning on entering a show run by a friend of mine who graduated last year. I'll post more details on that soon, but it should be fun.

Saturday, August 1, 2009

Drip drop.

August is already here... Something about the end of summer atmosphere in Connecticut is so tranquil. I may hate Hartford but I'll always love New England.

I'm still making artwork. I plan on redoing my three Sicily paintings from scratch. Two of them I was "happy" with but I feel like they could have been better had I had more time to work on them. Just for kicks, I'll update this blog with the progress.

Also, for the record...